Has anyone upgraded to the 2.3.1, yet? Surely I am not the only one who hasn’t. I must say this is the ONLY thing I do not like about using WP as my platform. They are *always* finding some issue and making new upgrades. They have had TWO within the past 73 days. Ugh. Pikers. Ok, not much of a rant – but anyway.

Off to find a snack. See ya’ll for the weekend PhotoHunt. Long, hmm – I always wonder what you folks will come up with. Ha.

Oh! –> This fella, Neil is giving away *his* Canon IXY Digital 1000 10 MP camera! His meaning his camera not a new one. I’m not willin’ to pay for a chance but hey – you get a free chance to win it if you tell others- so, I’m tellin’ ya! =)

I just need to air out some thoughts. Some “disagree” with me on my prior post about getting another cat -both online and off. Let me make it known there is nothing to disagree on. I’m not replacing an animal and never implied that I was. I’m just getting another cat. Huge difference. When? I don’t know… but I am. Everyone is different and getting a cat after the loss of a cat may not be your cup ‘o tea… or it may. I don’t know… all I know is what works for me and mine.

I know you can’t replace a life. No cat could ever replace my Punky. She meant so much to me in so many ways, for so many reasons. Punkin helped me stay strong while my husband was deployed – yes, she had a huge impact on that, both times. She made me laugh, so much. She brought me joy. She listened to me bitch. She listened to me praise. She traveled the USA with me. She lived in three states with me. She was my “dream cat” – the cat I dreamed of having while growing up. She was a gift to me from my husband. She’s so much more. Part of her is still with me today and part of me is gone with her.

Cat or no cat, I’m very likely to continue crying myself to sleep each night, for a while. Cat or no cat, I’ll still miss my precious Punky… I’ll still cry when I put new flowers on her grave – atleast for a long while, I’m sure. Nothing changes in gaining a new cat except my heart grows to love one more cat.

Just wanted to clarify – not that I needed too… but this is heavy on my heart. I know several don’t know me (personally) but those who do know me on a personal level would know I’d never “replace” a pet. I can’t believe some would think I was so shallow. Maybe I’m just sensitive – which is likely as I have been emotional… but I had to speak my part on the topic.

I’ve been doing better. Doing good most of the day, still hard at night. I rec’d a card of heartfelt sympathy from the vet yesterday – that was really hard for me to read but it was so very kind of my vet. I have to head to the barn to feed Cosmo – so that’s it. I feel a little better now. Toodles.

*Note, this is nothing personal with any of my wonderful readers. I just needed to vent.

I believe in forgiveness. However, where do you draw the line? If someone does something wrong/bad… and it happens multiple times – do you continue to forgive?? Yes, I believe you do have to continue to forgive – but what do you do about the repentance? Do you break ties with someone who continually screws up?

I wonder what I should say to this person. Of course, at the moment isn’t a good time to talk to them- because I’m not in a good mood and I don’t like talkin’ serious when I’m in a bad mood. I don’t want to say things I really shouldn’t say. I know, or think, this person will screw up, again. I mean, track records do mean something, I think. I am seriously struggling with this. Ya see, I’ve ask this person straight-up a few times… many times, actually – if they were “havin’ issues, again” and they’d plainly say no. So, not only did they screw up – they’ve been lying to me. Nothing makes my blood boil more so than a liar.

I think what bothers me most is this person said they were a believer and had been saved. I wonder, if this person is really saved – would this person be screwin’ up so much? Then I wonder if I’m out of line for even thinkin’ about it. I did notice a change in this person – a while back, when they said they became saved – but it appears it was short lived. I could do the same things this person is/has been doing but I have no desire. I know right from wrong and never could “commit” myself to doing something I knew was wrong. I praise God for that because I know it’s through Him that I am strong enough to not do things I shouldn’t.

I do forgive. I will forgive. I just cannot seem to forget. No matter how hard I try, how long it’s been, or how much I pray I-j-u-s-t-c-a-n-’-t-s-e-e-m-t-o-f-o-r-g-e-t. I’m hurt by this. I’m affected. I’m bothered. I’m shaking and I don’t know why. I’m let down. I’m mad. I’m very upset. I just do not understand some people and their actions.

Yeah, this is vague but I respect the privacy of others lives and didn’t really want to go to deep into the subject. I just needed to express my thoughts on the matter… I typed this well before it posted – so I hope my mood is better by the time you read this.