I believe in forgiveness. However, where do you draw the line? If someone does something wrong/bad… and it happens multiple times - do you continue to forgive?? Yes, I believe you do have to continue to forgive - but what do you do about the repentance? Do you break ties with someone who continually screws up?
I wonder what I should say to this person. Of course, at the moment isn’t a good time to talk to them- because I’m not in a good mood and I don’t like talkin’ serious when I’m in a bad mood. I don’t want to say things I really shouldn’t say. I know, or think, this person will screw up, again. I mean, track records do mean something, I think. I am seriously struggling with this. Ya see, I’ve ask this person straight-up a few times… many times, actually - if they were “havin’ issues, again” and they’d plainly say no. So, not only did they screw up - they’ve been lying to me. Nothing makes my blood boil more so than a liar.
I think what bothers me most is this person said they were a believer and had been saved. I wonder, if this person is really saved - would this person be screwin’ up so much? Then I wonder if I’m out of line for even thinkin’ about it. I did notice a change in this person - a while back, when they said they became saved - but it appears it was short lived. I could do the same things this person is/has been doing but I have no desire. I know right from wrong and never could “commit” myself to doing something I knew was wrong. I praise God for that because I know it’s through Him that I am strong enough to not do things I shouldn’t.
I do forgive. I will forgive. I just cannot seem to forget. No matter how hard I try, how long it’s been, or how much I pray I-j-u-s-t-c-a-n-’-t-s-e-e-m-t-o-f-o-r-g-e-t. I’m hurt by this. I’m affected. I’m bothered. I’m shaking and I don’t know why. I’m let down. I’m mad. I’m very upset. I just do not understand some people and their actions.
Yeah, this is vague but I respect the privacy of others lives and didn’t really want to go to deep into the subject. I just needed to express my thoughts on the matter… I typed this well before it posted - so I hope my mood is better by the time you read this.